Ok, so if you met me personally, you would understand that, yes i am talented but when it comes to competing against other people, i tend to shy away - alot!
Really i am loud and happy, but when it comes to stuff like sports, drama auditions and talent try outs, my heart sinks.
I love acting, singing and dancing, but i could never do it professionally because i really don't have the courage to compete with others for the very special reason that i;pm terrified that i will fail and embarrassed myself!
I remember, this one time i was SOOOOOO confident in trying out for this play of Beauty and the Beast at my school, so learnt my lines and practiced singing the audition piece 'Tale as old as Time' BUT when it came to auditioning.......... I COMPLETELY CHOKED and ended up not even going to the audition and just waiting at the bus stop outside for mum to pick me up :(
Needless to say, i'd never felt so ashamed or upset in my life, but relieved that i wasn't going to embarrass myself in front of the audition judges.
What to do, what to do about that..? Well for the next to school play auditions - i didn't go. Believing i had done the right thing, but i don't think its the whole preforming on stage thing that scares me, i believe its just the whole 'what is that girl is better than me?" yeah, that is what's wrong with me. I AM NOT COMPETITIVE!
Is that a good thing or a bad?
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